doesnt it really give u a warm feeling when ur frens say nice stuff abt u...i think it does haha... i mean not neccessarily tt will become proud and all... just tt feel warm and appreciated haha... hmm anyway... went to suntec with mummy and stef and daddy today... yay! bot a new swimming costume and the new jars of clay cd!! i also found the cd where the sing still is!! so happy... and found out tt there is a new united live cd!! haha,... as u can see we spent really long at life bookstore... and esmond help me burn the plantet shakers reflector cd!! haha... ok feel kinda bad like ripping christian cds... james's influence haha... but anyway nvm... im listening to it now... during trg on fri the song reflector kept ringing in my head... its qt a nice song i think... esp like the part where we shout Jesus lives in me! dunno y but i think its nice haha...

oh and today during cell we were like talking abt prayer and when the persistent prayers of the jewish church helped save peter when he was arrested and all... it kinda encouraged me... been praying for something for so long... and like there is no reply... and it hurts me so much cos i really want it so badly and its not even for myself... but yet i dont see anythign happening... and its so hard to continue praying and beseeching God for it... like dunno how many times ive cried abt it and its something i think of super often... like i think tt God has put it as a burden on my heart so tt i WILL pray for it... but its really hard lah... anyway, today's bible study really encouraged me! will continue praying and persevering now... God has His own time and in the same way the jewish church didnt fail in their test neither will i! today uncle chee boon was like asking us y do we believe in God... and i think for me its cos i feel Him in my life and i see His hand in whatever i do... i know its like qt an objective ans and non concrete but tts wad i feel... like in all i do i see that there is a higher purpose and someone controlling whatever happens to me... and also i feel Him when he comforts me when im down or when He disciplines me then shows me where i have gone wrong... its like u know that someone exists because u ahve a relationship with the person and in the same way i know that God is dere cos i have a relationship with Him and i see myself considering His prompting before i do things (at least i try) and i guess tts y to me i know tt God exists... anyway i dont think ive been a very good christian lately... must really buck up... tml going for breakfast with the girls... :)